a small, fading hickey on my left breast reminds me that you’re the best even when i’m picking my face in front of a ***** bathroom mirror shirtless and un-showered and smelling of cat **** you’re the best even when you’re the worst even when you scream and criticize and bleed you are trying and you’re human and you see me you’re the best because you care enough to grab my hand and hold it when you see that i’m digging my fingernail into the side of my thumb you’re the best you leave marks on my chest because i told you that i liked it once, forever ago
hello again. it's been awhile. i am still writing. i miss having a place to put it where it feels like the right eyes are looking. like it has a home. i wrote this a few months ago, after a fight with my lover.