I'm not good with emotions
Things like love or like
I'm incapable of handling situations
Boys and Girls alike

I question is something wrong with me?
Am I sick, incapable of love
Or am I just afraid of commitment
Maybe I just need a shove

The heat of the moment lights a spark
A wonderful night, of pure unadulterated fun
Then the next day and week
My heart begins to freak

I
Avoid him
Freak out
I'll have
Panic attacks
Breakdowns
Be Afraid
Feel fear
Want to Disappear
Break down in tears

I hurt them
Break them
Destroy their hearts and souls
I pretend that I'm the weak one
But i'm really in control

Well aside the panic and fear
I try to make things clear
Please forget about me
I'm not someone that can be held dear

Why do I feel this way?
So afraid of the world
Fearful of everything
Scared of everyone

Am I just broke?
Corrupted inside
Maybe somewhere along the way
My heart seemed to die

I dont understand
Because I'm usually calm and composed
Yet as soon as somebody likes me
That goes out the window

What is this?
I cant comprehend
Can I find somewhere out there
That i can come to love more than a friend

Can somebody please tell me
Shout out a cry
Tell me please
Can somebody explain why