everywhere i go,
there are reminders of you.
whether it be the blue sky
that reminds me of your eyes,
or the pink cherry blossom tree,
reminding me of your lips.
the soothing melodies of ed sheeran
remind me of when you used to sing them
to me over facetime.
and any time you pop up on
my twitter or instagram timeline,
or even my youtube recommended.
it's like you're everywhere.
reminders of everything we were.
everything we could have been.
everything we weren't.

i wonder if anything reminds
you of me.
do you see your baseball cap
and remember the matching one i have?
do you ever look down at your bracelets
and smile down at the one i gave you.
do you even wear it?
do you think of me when you hear ed sheeran?
or when chasing cars by snow patrol comes
on shuffle?

do i ever even cross your mind?
i doubt it.
but unfortunately for me,
you're always on mine.

i almost bought tickets to your show today.
i wonder if you thought of me when my
city was announced.
i wonder if you prayed that i was going to show up,
or if you planned out an apology speech just in case.
or maybe you prayed i wouldn't show up,
and lucky for you, i won't.
because i know if i see you,
my heart won't be able to handle it.

but no matter how much i try to avoid you,
i know one day i'll have to face you again
so i can let go.