i lie facedown on the train tracks. the gravel presses symbols into my skin, but none of them translate.
home is a concept with too many rooms. i sharpened my alibi on my mother’s brittle bones until it fit into a quieter mouth. she didn't flinch.
the sun unthreads me one fiber at a time. nothing resists. blink blink blink each time, the world returns slightly rearranged— trees on the ceiling, windows in my stomach.
i found a way out, but it only leads back here. the platform loops in the shape of an open jaw. i circled it three times, then laid down between its metal teeth— the world doesn’t bite anymore. it just holds me.
small, warm, still breathing. regret nests in the hinge of my jaw. i keep it clenched, and it doesn’t protest. it flicks the lights off when the rail begins to sing. it knows the schedule better than i do.
the daylight plucks at my ribs like harp strings. each note sounds like a name i was never meant to hold. i buried the moon weeks ago. she made it difficult to leave. if you’re still listening— the train is already halfway through me.
today, i let the mouth stay open. maybe the scream will crawl back in. maybe it never left.
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