The pain ripped through my body
Tearing apart my muscles

Electricity shot through my arms
Sending sparks down my veins

My heart pounded against its cage
Each thump threatening to break free

My stomach boiled in its own acid
Sizzling as the bile rose in my throat

Hot tears rolled down my cheeks
Searing my skin as they trailed

One word drummed through my mind
Never
Each time it hammered my skull shook
        Never
The hopeless finality of Never

It screamed in a skull splitting screech
        Never
would I be happy
        Never
would I be myself
        Never
would I be free.