this intoxicating drink
is absurdly disgusting

yet tastes better
than watching you love her

so i rather sip on
this vision-blurring liquor,
in order to be unable
to look in the mirror
and realize

my eyes
will never shine like hers

my lips
will never kiss you as good

my body
will never feel as warm
as when you hold her

and my smile
will never be a smile

because i won't smile
as long as i watch you love her