There's some protection in my reflection
A relief that I never mention
A disturbing sense of reality
Free from my ****** up mentality
Shows me I still exist on the outside
Without a rabbit hole to duck in and hide inside
Now I finally know I'm real
Is this the way I'm supposed to feel?

Admiration turns to validation
Then degradation and humiliation
Always start off so happy that you love me
Time goes by and everything gets ugly
I guess that's what hurts the most
You can never ever ever let them get close
Keep em arms length they'll adore you from a distance
Let them in and they'll hurt you in an instant
Check my face in the pocket mirror
Does my hair look okay is my make up smeared?
I gotta make a good first impression
I try to be my own version of perfection
I'm tripping over my 2 left feet
To be each different person they all want me to be
If someone doesn't like you it really sticks
If you're unremarkable, do you even exist?

Admiration turns to validation
Then degradation and humiliation
Always start off so happy that you love me
Time goes by and everything gets ugly
I guess that's what hurts the most
You can never ever ever let them get close
Keep em arms length they'll adore you from a distance
Let them in and they'll hurt you in an instant
Before you know it you're faced with your mistake
How many more times is it gonna take?
Some bruises just never heal
But a smile can always hide what you really feel
There's nothing left inside of me to break
But if you really try you get used to the ache
There's only 3 things on earth you cannot measure
Pleasure, pain, and forever.

Admiration turns to validation
Then degradation and humiliation
Always start off so happy that you love me
Time goes by and everything gets ugly
I guess that's what hurts the most
You can never ever ever let them get close
Keep em arms length they'll adore you from a distance
Let them in and they'll hurt you in an instant.