Feb 2018
As protruding collar bones
and hip bones
and ribs
As hunger
and money
and happiness
As knowledge
and wonder
and sadness
As crop tops
and skinny jeans
and piggyback rides
As thigh gaps
and dainty hands
and jawlines
But
I am not beautiful
I do not have bones that push so far out of my skin
That they tower above skyscrapers
I do not have size 00 jeans
or 32 A cup bras
I do not have a scale that doesn't sigh
when I step on it daily
No
I am not beautiful
I was taught I am ugly
I am a pig
I am the definition of repulsive
Beauty is taught
And so is self hatred
and hip bones
and ribs
As hunger
and money
and happiness
As knowledge
and wonder
and sadness
As crop tops
and skinny jeans
and piggyback rides
As thigh gaps
and dainty hands
and jawlines
But
I am not beautiful
I do not have bones that push so far out of my skin
That they tower above skyscrapers
I do not have size 00 jeans
or 32 A cup bras
I do not have a scale that doesn't sigh
when I step on it daily
No
I am not beautiful
I was taught I am ugly
I am a pig
I am the definition of repulsive
Beauty is taught
And so is self hatred
This one isn't really put together because I just came up with it. I stepped on my scale this morning and was seriously considering grabbing a pair of scissors and going at my stomach. So instead, I made tea, I did some homework, ate an apple, and wrote this. Have fun with this emotional *****!
