my friends told me that i should move on

i still have your pictures in my camera roll
for they hold the memories of us and your smile

i still have your favourite sweater hung in my cupboard
unwashed,
because it held your scent

and i still leave the half of my bed empty,
hoping when i wake up
i will see you beside me instead

i search for you in everyone
in crowded room and empty streets
it feels like u were nowhere and everywhere at the same time.

they said i'm going crazy
but maybe they're right

because i thought

maybe if i keep on having even the slightest hope

maybe you would come back.