You know that space between sleep and awake? That place where you are thinking, but not dreaming yet? Right at that moment, right at that place it hurts the most. I close my eyes and your silhouette appears at a dark street corner. I stand next to you and we smoke in silence. I spot us at Irish pubs drinking beer. I see us in shapes and colors and lines, Losing ourselves on crowded dance floors. I feel your salty skin next to mine, While whispering promises to each-other. I follow us while getting lost in sunny unknown cities. Passing by car lights cracking my thoughts, I turn around in my empty bed and I want to feel the warmth of youth in a cold set of sheets. My eyelids get heavy, I am about to disconnect. I get anxious as i drift away in the dark abyss of my subconscious. Itβs the place before sleep and awake, where I love you the most, but I still lose you when I dream.