you know that feeling when something happens that you knew probably happened but just didn’t want to believe it was true but now you know it’s true and so your heart just kinda sinks to your feet and you aren’t quite sure how to pick it back up and you don’t even feel like crying because all your anguish just dissipated into the air and now you feel empty so you just sit there on the floor staring at nothing all the life and color absent from your eyes