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good little processor

by gumdrop

i give them my executables and ask them to reverse engineer me to look into my code for reasons reasons that i'm not just broken not just slow not just bad if these letters on this line mean that i am programmed to worry then it is not my fault not my fault that i have wasted years years of my life in fear it's just a bug looping too many times using too many clock cycles my code may be broken, but if it is broken then i am not maybe, just maybe i am a good processor given bad code. not my fault. no one could blame me. it would mean i do what i am told to perfectly quickly efficiently. but what i am told to do is buggy unoptimized inefficient my programmers are lazy - not me. when i find a function in my code that never works and they say "that code is fine" then why? why does it never run? something must be wrong with me after all me, myself, the processor i don't do what i am told but no, no, no i don't want that i can't be broken, overheating, dusty segfaulting bluescreening panicking no! the code must be wrong it must be so i look again and again and again i lose myself in my code i click and click and click 2x more and 2x more and 2x more COMT and DRD4 and ANKK1 rs53576 and rs7794745 and rs1858830 lower risk and normal risk and higher risk of the same thing in me at once conflicting overwriting each other there is no code to add risk objects and no one knows whether they make a group or a ring or a field or just something useless. like dividing by zero. you can... but it's useless in the real world. just like me. i look for more code for more functions for more comments more more more give me more take my rights make me open source as long as i can see me too. 602,000 lines are not enough not when i run millions stick your wires in my veins take the code from my blood decompile it untangle it i need to see it all i need to know that i am a good little processor even if i am doomed to forever run BASIC and a million GOTO statements and ugly ugly spaghetti code i am still good.
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Dec 27, 2017
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written 16 February 2016

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#genetics#disability#autism#anxiety#health#depression#adhd#mentalhealth
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