when someone tells me im pretty or that im beautiful or that they wish they had my brain or they wish they could be me all i can think is how they’re lying
because who wants to have my fat stomach or my disgusting thighs or my ugly face or my self-destructive mind or my suicidal thoughts or my depression
they’re probably trying to be nice when they say they want to look like me but they probably mean it when they say they want my brain, my mind because they don’t know what goes on up there how i hate myself how i am disgusted with myself how i wish i didn’t wake up how i wish were dead
but then again how could they know when i don’t tell them or when they don’t ask