I pick up details. all the details. or as many details as possible in the available time frame
but I can’t make connections between things. A does not connect to B for me. I can't zoom out and drag and drop a line of relation from A to B.
instead I have to drag it myself. Over kilometers of terrain and time and effort. Most people use a cart. But not me. No, I don’t have a cart. Every attempt bites away more time and effort in getting the relationship of A to B. It’s hard and exhausting and I don’t have many shortcuts for this. It’s hills and mountains for me.
Sometimes I can zoom out. But’s it not an easy in-between zoom, like on google maps where you can see where you are on a street. Or even which neighborhood you’re in. If the details are the trees and the big picture is forest then, I go from crunching on pine needles, to a view above the clouds.
But it’s not a satellite image. I can’t see the tall green things clustered together that would make me think “forest”. I just see a solid, light green polygon. It’s green so I know it’s something to do with nature. But I don’t know for sure. It could be grass. It could be a jungle, which is really close to a forest, but not quite, and I don’t know the exact criteria distinguishing one from the other. No details for me here.
I know the basic shape and what it might be, but I’m not sure of the specifics that make up this green place. It’s to do with nature. That’s all I got, so that’s what I go on.
Turns out explaining a complicated developmental disorder is easier with poetry than with paragraphs. Who knew?