i think my demons are feeling replaced. the things they would normally communicate to me are coming out of the mouths of those i am forced to surround myself with. you can't be convinced of something you've already accepted.
i used to pray for the voices to stop but ever since they've been quieted by those around me, i've decided that i'd rather have the voices-- the lesser of two evils. it's ironic, isn't it? like how i crawled into my bed last night and cried, "i just want to go home" until i fell asleep. am i supposed to feel disappointed every time i wake up? i shouldn't feel like a stranger in my own skin.
lately i've been struggling a lot in this sea of anxiety. it's hard to float with bullet holes in your back. maybe that's why i've been drowning for as long as i can remember.