If ever you find yourself doubting your existence, remember that there's a reason you are alive.
Lavenders are not always in bloom, but when they are they become beautifully alive. And everyone is in awe of its splendor. Not even a king's robe can compare.
Sometimes pruning is necessary for growth. Sometimes healing comes through rain. Sometimes a year of drought makes you realize how much you wanted to be alive, and you start praying for rain.
You're almost there. Like a lavender, exude a strong scent reminding everyone your time to bloom has come.