The start (of) / a braid or a rope / is nothing (at the beginning of this) / it is only the idea stemming / from a sapling or a seed to become / a tree / reality / what we touch, see, and wish to be / Ancient beings can feel how they are not free / I notice this is my mother’s face / as I lead her to the restroom / so near, too far for her / the years count with her / the (counted) years count the steps to the toilet / and consider just holding it / because the pain of walking so clearly outweighs / the pain of holding your *** after birthing 3 children / one of them dead / okay, birthing two children / I was cut from my mother / Regardless, / maybe if you cut out the lungs / things would cease to be / chaotic like the outreach / reaching out a hand / praying she’ll find me / because I’ve gone too far and can’t rewind //////
maybe if you remove my lungs…. / I could stop focusing on my breathing / give you all of my love / show you I am not worthy / of that admiration leaking from your ears //////
don’t be jealous of me
Jealous of me? She couldn't be. How could she be? Lying beside me-- Wishing to have my something