What was meant to be,
Was never meant to be
Like everything that we let happen
I just want an escape, for everything to be irrelevant
I've been trapped inside our memories
The nights we stayed up laughing
I'm acting like I'm fine, as if none of this ever happened
Like my body is shielded with armor but inside I'm collapsing
I know that you've moved on, and that's fine
So have I
But sometimes I reminisce the feelings we made alive
And all those moments when you'd call me up at 3 in the morning
Can't tell you why I'm still not giving in
Am I provoking emotions?
Was I wrong to try,
To save the thing I thought that we had?
Or was I crazy to believe that we could piece it all back
Like broken mirrors, but I don't think that we could see through the cracks
We could do this all again, I know we start over from scratch
So tell me, was it worth it?
With all the lies and the games
All the fights and the name calling
I'm sorry to say, that these words aren't meant for you
But for me to ease the pain
Because sometimes you do feel better
When you walk in the rain
I know I said it was for the best,
And while I'm filled with regret
I've been losing pieces of myself
And I don't know how much is left
I don't want to ever clean up my room
Because I'd be the only mess that's left
I'm still cleaning up my thoughts
Yet you're the only thought that never left