fire; engulfed by a heat that wasn't man made. a heat that burns worse than a burn or a cut drowned in alcohol. a desire to feel pain a desire to feel nothing. but a breath, but a pulse, but the warmth of a touch. but feeling is nothing. it was a drug and these are just withdraw symptoms. and one day the feeling will return but not today. today i am burning without turning to ash. today i am a fire that can only be put out by her.