Dirt under my nails From trying to bail out on reality The night before. Shakes, spins, sweats, and I can't wrap my head around the kind of self sabotage this is. If it's not helping me, it's hurting me. If you're ignoring me, don't think I won't leave because I will. My footsteps are heavy and slow; steady I know. but I have come a long way plenty of suns before. there is no way to go that is too far. no companion that tries too hard And nothing that grounds me more, Than love.