You wanted me
To take you in deep
You wanted me
To let you in
take you underneath of my skin
So this is where I thought I'd begin
I beat myself up
For every mistake that I make
Can't help it
When everyone's calling you stupid
And dragging you down
Even my own family
Says I'll never be
The star I wanted to be
I wanted to shine brightly
To prove I could become
The person that I wanted to be
But it seems
that'll never happen for me

Isn't it enough that I hate myself
Without being hated by everyone else?

I write songs about me dying
Truth is I don't wanna die
I'm too afraid to take my own life
Cuz I don't know what the hell
Is on the other side
I'd rather deal with the pain
That is burning inside
I'd rather have regrets
Overrunning my mind
Then find out,
what is on the other side
After we finish living our lives.

Look at the ****
I come up with
When I'm on my own
It looks like I'll sit here crying
All alone
And sometimes your only
A stone throw away
But somehow you still don't see me
I'm here suffering in agony
And your right there
Not seeing through my invisibility

Isn't it enough that I hate myself
Without being hated by everyone else?

I write songs about me dying
Truth is I don't wanna die
I'm too afraid to take my own life
Cuz I don't know what the hell
Is on the other side
I'd rather deal with the pain
That is burning inside
I'd rather have regrets
Overrunning my mind
Then find out,
what is on the other side
After we finish living our lives.

I shouldn't let this misery
Get the best of me
Ah all these people
Keep picking me to pieces
All I wanna do is scream
Cuz all the fragmented parts
Of my soul
Just won't fit back together
And the situation isn't getting better
And I'm falling deeper
Save me from this conscience eater
There's a monster growing inside
Overtaking my mind

Isn't it enough that I hate myself
Without being hated by everyone else?

I write songs about me dying
Truth is I don't wanna die
I'm too afraid to take my own life
Cuz I don't know what the hell
Is on the other side
I'd rather deal with the pain
That is burning inside
I'd rather have regrets
Overrunning my mind
Then find out,
what is on the other side
After we finish living our lives.

Can you show me
What it feels like
To be loved
To be loved
Can you show me
What it feels like
To be loved
To be loved
Isn't is enough
Isn't it enough that I hate myself
Without being hated by everybody else

©2017 Written By Benji James