sometimes i really believe that all that i am is a girl who was once loved -- but i’m done pretending that's the beginning and end of me. maybe the best moments of my life happened in your passenger seat and maybe they didn’t, who’s to say? i’m done pretending i have any certain ideas about what’s coming
i haven’t driven by the hospital in months because i still get the same sinking feeling in my stomach when i walked out for the last time and left you behind, hooked up to a million machines. this town is dotted with little heartbreaks, places where you left a mark on me, and sometimes it’s just easier to leave,
so i left. a summer in new jersey was never quite what i planned, which is fitting, since none of this was. i'd be lying if i never said that with every step i take away from you my head gets a little clearer, my smile gets a little more natural, and maybe this is just how healing is supposed to work. maybe this is just how deserts are crossed and mountains are climbed; step by step.