Their voices were sweet
Calming
Steady
I went to them
In a trance like state
Willing to do whatever they asked
And when I became lonely
Through no one’s fault but my own
They were there to comfort me
When nobody else was
Singing me lullabies
Then they demanded payment
Sacrifice in blood
After all they did for me
I realized too late it was manipulation
By my very own mind
I’ve lived with them for so long
I feel guilt when I am not hopeless
I don’t deserve to be happy
Though I couldn’t tell you why
Though I couldn’t tell myself why
How can I trust anyone to tell me the truth about me
If I can’t even believe my own thoughts
My thoughts are suffocating
Bitter
Excruciating
Unstable
I must face my demons alone
After all
What choice do I have