I am in love.
But this will not have
a happy ending.
I do not know
how to be lovable.
I go home with boys
who aren't you,
and try not to call them
by your name.
You tell me they're
no good for me.
Please, show me what
is good for me.
I am desperately trying
to find the perfect
distraction.
I cannot figure out
how to be someone
you'd want,
and I can tell that
it's killing me.
I crave you
like nothing else on
this earth.
Try to love me,
or make yourself
leave me.