If it wasn't clear, I've come to be okay with the fact that the world's plans will always reach an impasse with my own, and call off all the dreams it swore to bring to flesh and bone for me, because I've heard what they say about that thing called infatuation (or romance, or some loose translation of that) and fools; it's easy to tease one, hard to love one, and it's a life sentence to let yourself be loved by one; I was just hoping it would be worse to never feel the love of a fool at all.