Freezing cold because I deserve it,
That's why I reject things like warmth
Or sweatshirts
Or hugs
When I'm sad and shivering.

I didn't want to tell you why,
Then and there,
When I already seemed so broken to you,
So wounded,
So damaged.

So hurt.

I don't want to burden you with that.
I have trouble letting myself be comfortable,
Because I think I don't deserve it, it makes me a problem.

Recently I've only wanted to sleep.
Change takes a lot out of me.
But I spend my days wide awake,
Because I can't get comfortable enough
Until I know you should be home,
And then I just want to be in your arms.

Your eyes take my breath away,
And I don't feel like catching it.