i'm on my back. this is my favorite place to be. beneath you. feeling you slide in effortlessly. your broad shoulders holding yourself up. maybe that's vanilla. maybe that's hot. but i don't care. and neither do you. i feel safe. secure. loved. i float. my eyes closed.
but then my eyes are open. and you are no longer there. but the feeling of safety and security do not change. they do not leave me. i am still safe and secure. for you were only helping me find those things within myself. you were never actually there.