I had to give up my sexcapes
I started to form an addiction
and realized the control I thought
I had, had me.
No more did it become my great
escapes but left me feeling
confused and unamused...
shit it was getting hard for
me to breathe.
It was hard for me to believe
that I had sunken to that level
treating my body as a worthless
vessel, digging holes in my
soul and I was holding the
shovel.
Damn, that's deep...
had to look there for
the parts of me I
had lost.
Guess you can say I
got caught up in the sauce.
The satisfaction became a
fraction. Divided myself
in half and was left
with nothing.
Half a mind, half a soul, half
a body I was walking
around incomplete.
You see I forgot I was a
sun Ray and was my beacon
of hope... promise.
I promised myself to never
travel back down that path
I picked a dandelion and
made a wish.
With help from God I'm
walking on rainbows to
my own pot of gold.
Gotta give Him praise because
sometimes the road got a lil' rough
but I remained strong.
My journey taught me
to be tough.
Taught me to endure
and have faith.
Now today I'm
celebrating because
my life is a parade.