lipstick stains on paper coffee cup lids my brother always told me i would have to sit back and watch people younger and more inexperienced than i succeed while i suffered.
oh but i think he was wrong three conversations and one free cup of coffee later things are starting to look up for me
and i'm thinking that i am the younger one succeeding while elders suffer.
(on the flipside i don't want to be making sandwiches for the rest of my life)
and i wonder sometimes if i'm just naturally gifted or if i just naturally try too hard to be liked
(or there's an offchance a slim blueish sliver of possibility that the stars have all been lined up for me)
anyway that assumption however incorrect it may be is better than last week when i was thinking that no longer was i good enough
*(but scratch that nothing i ever accomplish or that the skies have pre-established will make me believe i'm good enough.)