I needed you to tear me apart.

In your hands,
I built a caricature of what I thought
Joshua
wanted to be.

Then I stood back and watched you burn it to the ground.

I needed you to break my heart.
I needed you to set me free,
so I could find myself once more.

Now,
even while I love
and despise
your hideously radiant
soul...


I guess I should thank you.