His voice It rolls on a wave to my mind I can barely hear the words And I do mean a wave Gentle and quiet it laps against the shoreline of my heart
How often I ignore them Those beautiful touches Those precious thoughts All towards me All from my God
Some days my heart is reached A sandy beach one would dream of Others are cold and hard Cliffs far above those gentle waters Built up on time and fear and shame My earthen walls
From atop those cliffs I glance upon those waters Remembering the warmth going to and fro Of His peace, His Wisdom Give me something Anything to break down these cliffs Anything to feel those waters again
I look at the hard earth in despair How can one overcome such an obstacle? I drop to my knees And it all crumbles. I find myself in familiar sand And even more familiar Gentle touches of a wave Upon my knees Upon my fingertips as I kneel in that sand
From here I see the ocean vast Relentless and unchanging On and on it goes With cliffs being but a memory I stand up I step in
I wrote this out of a several month struggle with ******* and missing someone I loved dearly(who is now my girlfriend). It came at 4 am after I realized how distant I had become from God.