**If only you had stood by me,
patted my back & said
"There's always a next time".
I would have tried again...
If you had held me up every time
I tripped & fell and told me that
wasn't the end...
I would have stood my ground
if you had held out the rope
for me the moments I were deep
down the dark abyss of despair
I would have climbed out instantly
If you had cheered me up
too albeit I hadn't emerged the
very best in the so many a race...
I would have enrolled for another
If you had forgiven me
when I made the first of the
million grave mistakes which
ultimately cost the team
the 999,999 would have been won
If you had listened the many
times I really tried to explain
you probably would've understood
If only you had mourned with me
when I was burying my dead
I would have forgotten my loss
If you had walked with me before
I took the very first step of this
journey, the miles would have seemed less
I'd have walked farther than I did.
if you had knelt down and prayed
with me when I needed to believe
my faith wouldn't have faltered
if you had been there when I was
in need of a shoulder to lean on
I would call you my family
if you'd given me crumbs when I
were hungry, drops when I were
thirsty, clothed my ******
dressed my wounds, counselled me
lent an ear when I battled insanity
I probably couldn't have fallen off
the edge and gone totally bananas
if only you had scratched my back
when I was growing my nails
maybe I could have satisfactorily scratched your itch thenceforth
if only you had read my scripts
and poetry even if they were but
mere rumblings and cacographs
I could have written a glossary...**
If only you had even just tried to...