at some point in time you saved my life.

you thought I was worth something and you promised you'd help me.

a few months later,
I feel your calloused hands on top of my own; helping me holding a gun below my chin
I see your shadow behind my body;
creeping into my skin and taking over any light that had once existed
I hear your soothing voice and steady heartbeat;
I'm home right? you always promised you'd be my home.

but you're killing me now
why are you killing me?

I tried to let go of that gun long ago but now
you're sitting here sending me sweet nothings,
easing my mind so i'll pull that **** trigger

everything changed between us months ago,
all you do now is hover in front of me,
like a ghost plotting revenge against it's murderer
you said "I love you too **** much."

I'm screaming,
everything is becoming dark
and the pain has become too much
so you pull the trigger.
you're yelling "this is it.
this is the last ******* time."

you had your eyes closed
*you said "i never loved you, I never even tried to."