You were no Eve of Russian literature like Pushkin’s precious Tatyana. You were no young, innocent, provincial girl seduced by cynical Onegin, that bon vivant corrupted by modern European values. You were no mysterious Russian soul brimful of essential purity and self-sacrifice - with a love of pain and pure disdain of happiness.
Tatyana resisted all temptation, refusing to take flight, rejecting the man she loved. She was too good to be true; but you, Anna what a pickle you got yourself in, choosing ****** sin. You could share an affair with dashing Vronsky elope with him and leave behind your husband abandon your beloved son, Alexei.
But these were not the dreadful choices sealing your tragic fate, my dear Anna. It was those ****** feelings you chased all based on the sin of selfishness. You fed on romance, passion and desire. Your hot-hunger was insatiable, a fire rip-roaring through restraint and all decorum You sweated and panted wild for ******.
They say you’re a ‘drama queen’; heartless and mean a woman undone by excess, always longing to undress nakedly making grand errors of judgement. By ignoring Tatyana’s fine example, you certainly forgot there will always be those who tot up the ledger. Your blood debt was owing, it had to be paid.
You saw the light at the end of the tunnel - cool down, Anna, let the raw feelings subside be watchful, wary and ever-ready to step aside let the moments of menace and gloom drain – it might just be an oncoming train is due.