Throw the window open To bring cool air to a room Which gathered heat With all the thoughts Bouncing off the closed walls.
Night. The sky, a bruised purple, The clouds faint, infra-red. The trees are cut-out silhouettes Placed in the foreground of endlessness. 1.a.m. The night is still.
There is the hum of a plane in the distance, Last train now long past earshot. Thin blue curtains play at the breeze, Tickle my shoulder As I kneel at the ashtray, The windowsill altar.
Ornaments reveal themselves In the black gardens below. The gnome with the broken tambourine That kicks up in the current, The wind chime on the Apple Tree; The bell on the house catβs neck.
Staring into space all night But with this view I do not have to strain my eyes.
Do not linger on the details That are lost in the shadow.
Always made time for the moon. The quiet one at parties, Only came alive at night, In the company of those who drink wine, Swallow pills in the morning To see the day through.
Room scarred with scorch marks, Stains from drunken falls. All those endless nights, Dead bedsheets, Waiting for the chemicals To push my head underwater, To find sleep.
Windowsill vigils, Awake with the moon. Kept myself alive For these pockets of time Where I do not need to talk. Where I do not need to move.