the bell rings
and i'm out of breath
did i do well today?
what will my parents say?
i stand in my loneliness
on top of the world
the view is great
the air is cooler than normal

but suddenly i feel so afraid of the void
trying to comfort myself
i say i can't be perfect
i start to let myself go
under the numbers and grades
i run, so lost in this maze

i must make it
i must see it through
but will i ever be enough?

these mixed thoughts engulf me
with my life on the line
i pretend to be careless
for a moment i smile

but it comes back to me
hitting me with a greater force
i fall to my feet
this isn't the first time

i've been here before
i'm getting used to it
why do i even fake it?
the loneliness blossoms in the sun

the world looks so small now

i try to avoid the feeling
but i can't no matter how i try
my grades scrape the ground
even though i stand so high

the world looks so small now

when the heat becomes too much
i leave the expectations behind

forever, i'm scarred
hurt by the statistics
the world is getting closer now
*its grown so big