I used to talk to someone
Someone I've known
Someone I'd hang out with on a nice Sunday evening
Someone whom I could trust
And now I've seen a completely different side
Someone who I could love
Not enough to love
but enough to say hello
and talk to about problems
when she had her own
she still listened
secretly wanting to hug me and kiss me
and I knew
but I felt differently
I only wanted a friend.

She accepted as it was
my horrible choice I had made
And now I know this
but can do nothing
for she ended her life with me
and left this forsaken town
to live with her others
in a place too far away,
she never knew,
I loved her too.

All I can achieve now
is endlessly
sinking into my own mind
trying to calculate
what I could've done
to love her truly.
But my exhausted brain
can't find an answer
and thus
I am sinking into the Earth
trying to swim to her.