remember when you told me sleep was just practice? remember how when i asked what for, all you could manage was sea-foaming at the mouth and tired eyes?
funny how i see in black and white now. funny how i can still see sea-foam-blue.
one of the many things you taught me was to always keep eulogies tucked between my ribs in hopes of memorizing them by heart. i never knew heart break until words i can't remember writingβor, maybe, wont remember writing came spilling out of my mouth like reverse lockjaw.
but i remember the way you choked up and coughed out apologies as if you were fighting tides of pride; words getting caught in your throatβa foreshadowing of salt the water in your lungs.
i know i tend to ramble, and i know you tend to hate that but i swear god this had a point. i guess what i'm trying to say is, i never meant to be your anchor. i never wanted to drag you down.