i shut my eyes and: if you came back, sorry between your lips; leftover fingerprints of pride's embrace all around you. but you left pride a while ago, nonetheless. and maybe that would be enough for me, for us. because i have been waiting for you to come home. and it's the whispers of my heart to the shooting stars; and for the residue of what we gripped inside our palms to never turn into 'what should have been's, and instead into 'what will be,' 'what waits,' smiles of the near and distant future.
and i closed my eyes: maybe this one time i wouldn't make it right because we would make it past. i thought.
i thought.
that would be enough; but reality was late to the meeting. and when i handed my heart to you eons ago, you didn't place your faith into my arms. reality was late to the meeting. because when i waited for you to come home, you did not. for you liked the past more than the present; and that's where home locates to you. for the shooting stars was deaf to my cries. and the residue of what we had had already turned into 'should have been's and 'will never be's.
there will still be smiles in the near and distant future; but it will not be my smile next to yours, nor my smile carved by you.
when i titled this i thought of how butterfly is farfalla in italian idk thats so random but idk but anyways i totally dont regret breaking up with someone who doesnt appreciate me enough, although well, it was nice while it lasted.