nowadays my mind has been all over the place
my feelings, uncertain, a never-ending daze
God only knows what really goes on inside me
i think what i truly need is to just be free

free from the pain and sorrow caused by the heartless
who have transformed composure into a plain mess
free from the pressure, judgment, insecurity
from this hell of what we call a society

free from the empty, lonesome nights, even mornings
such simple moments bring out the most painful stings
free from the anger, hatred, despise for people,
i fight the urge to let out when i feel so small

but through my late struggles, at last i've discovered
the one thing i must escape, the truth uncovered
i now know why it never really crossed my mind
the fear of blaming someone new has made me blind

what if theres nothing wrong with the world we live in,
the world many people fault to save their own skin?
i have learned from experience that to a degree,
i am not someone anyone would want to be

i fix and then i break, i start and then i stop
i jump right back down after climbing to the top
i write and erase; i remember and forget
but why do i always do something i'll regret?

to those i've hurt, take this as an apology,
a confession, or a chance to get to know me
the sole reason i always strive to do my best
is to hide my failures behind utter success