I catalog events with a subtle, ulterior pretense Describing the notorious infamy in all the events And anything characterized, inspiring, and bold Makes a story unfold in the real time it's told I am snowblind and need defibrillation to wake up Either my heart turned cold or has simply had enough
The ferry fan dreamboat has only so inadequately found That as I feel my orienting response record the time down It is not truly me who was looking around Though I can pinpoint the exact moment that I drowned The only lingering product of me absolutely remaining Is the aftermath of my angina so ever restraining Never complaining until the sound of the trigger Then I'll be adamant to describe that noise with vigor Though rigorous it may be, I will try, I might even with some tact And let you in one last time presenting only fact. I stepped away and left this place while presently in line The sentence was one more time for the last time And then you said goodbye
I was watching all the while a vapor on the scene And I felt myself lose oxygen with no production in my spleen My blood does not perfuse in that bilateral moment of blame How can I let asystole clamp and constrict my cowed red vein? How could I dilate the cause of my shame? How could I love my life in the rain?
The simple reason I was experiencing tinitus... I found out all connections were lies Like a manufactured virus Love was a prescription with doses written in ink With no distinction and no response I could not think With no recompense or recognition I felt my larynx shrink
I was only dumbfounded so I took to my reflexes Handpicking a numb tendency to fill my recesses But it only drains you and me and leaves a hole behind I'm nowhere near magical so it's power cannot rewind If so inclined I'll tap my spine and steer it all back But I don't feel you anymore *Only this heart attack
This poem is dedicated to anyone who loses a piece of themselves every time someone truly special walks away.