"You are not alone. There is beauty in sadness. Many run from it or treat it as something that shouldn't be. We need to feel sadness to feel joy. Your sadness is cold. Can it be made to feel warm?”
can it? I am starting to think yes
realizing everything you said carries its own weight in truth without sadness I wouldn't know joy
duality is in every part of this universe from the ever shifting ocean in my soul to the massive star we named the sun and she shines because of duality
massive amounts of energy bursting pushing to get out the weight of her being crushing pushing down with equal force
the suns core fuses transfers makes something else out of what is inside her
her hydrogen becoming helium the constant change creating something almost stable almost predictable
one day there will be nothing left inside of her core to fuse
one day I will have nothing left inside of my soul to write
when there is no more hydrogen left no more passion left she will collapse under the weight of her existence
the pressure of this alone causes more change heavier elements heavier thoughts she will swell growing larger darker intrusive making us feel her being
leaving us with no where to go but to accept and to be engulfed
after there is nothing left she will collapse from her giant self overbearing us and our neighbors becoming a fragment of who she used to be rotating still the passion is gone her life source is gone the light lingers until she has nothing left her light burns out and until time stops she will stay a brown quiet dwarf all that's left are her memories of the life she gave to us
I hope when it is my time when my fuel has become heavy and when I engulf those around me forcing my deadly heat onto my planets that I won't collapse into a smaller star
into a lesser version of me
i want to be big enough that I explode tearing through what's left with the beams of energy I've stuffed inside of me
let my supernova carry the dust of the planet you were let me push you elsewhere farther let me bring new life energy hope when I explode
and then let me eat anything that gets too close you will never leave you are mine
my father sent me the words in quotes when I told him I was feeling depressed.