I watched the swell of my ******* rise and fall with each breath, and I remembered how your eyes traced the same movement. I absentmindedly ran my fingers along the flare of my hips, and remembered how white your knuckles were as you held on to the same flesh.
I couldn't fathom how you saw my rebirth as a slow death.
I was a woman in your arms, the flushed state of my skin was the secret to my depths. The breaths I released were tainted by my strung vocal chords, a hymn of truth. Each drop of sweat that descended the nape of my neck were pearls of my wisdom. When my toes curled it was a sign; the alignment of planets. The goosebumps that rose on my skin were the explosion of supernovas. The sparkle in my eyes told of humble mischief.
Only what I saw in your eyes was a distortion. The alarm on your features whispered of disappointment. Your eyes witnessed filth, but I smelled the scent of gardenias. Your skin was repelled by disgust, but I tasted sweetness on my lips.
I finally realized it, your mind was woven by our culture of shame. Subconsciously your thoughts wrapped around sin and the desecration of purity. I let you inside, cradled your needs and desires. I basked in the rush and desperation of your movement. But you saw this ritual as a sacrifice, and you held the knife to split me open on your malicious alter. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but you seemed to have gone blind.
The indulgence of my body and soul was wasted. It was wasted on you who clung to ignorance, you who was submerged in the fragility of your ego and superiority. I would not let you sully me, or the beauty of that moment. I would hail my strength, and scream out my confidence. I would relish in my femininity, for I am a woman and I would never be ashamed.