If I appear to you as happy
Then I've put on another successful show
I have mastered the art of masking
Masking all of my weaknesses and flaws

If you can confide in me your secrets
Then I've gained the security of your heart
I've mastered the art of trusting
Trusting in myself, in you to understand

I hope you will understand

The reason I can't always talk at night
The reason I wear long clothing in the summer
The reason I can't always be touched in certain places
No! It's not you baby , It's me

My skin is just sensitive right now

Wait for me to heal please
Then I'll be ready for the show again.
Then you can once again confide in me
I'll be back to service you once more.

Sometimes I forget that I'm needed.
I forget that I'm a part time therapist
I forget that I have people dependent on me
I even forget there is a me, until night fall

When everyone goes to sleep
When the messages stop
When there's no more people
When there's only…
me

That's when the world breaks down
My skeletons come out to play
The voices rush through my mind
My Hell is unleashed and I am alone.

Just me and the weapon of my choice
Sharp and ready
Ready to conquer my demons
Even if just for a night

My therapist is my scars
My performer is my blade
My volt is the blood shed
And no one knows them but me.

They don't know what I been feeling
What I'm still feeling
They are not aware of my trials and tribulations
They don't know I need help too