You had everything you needed

I couldn't give you all you wanted

but
I've made sure you had everything you needed

What went wrong
was so much more than what's seen on the surface

What's going on is way deeper
than a few hurtful words in the mist of arguments.

I can deal with this yet I refuse

I refuse to repeat this dance with someone new

I've passed this test before and I wont take it again

I'm spiritual tired, soul mind and body

I rather not accept anything from you

No more of me compromising
it's draining every single part of me

You
don't care and even though you see and hear
you're really not listening or paying attention
to key details

You throw blame at my insecurities  

Yes

I have some but I face them
and no matter what

I know
I'm  pretty **** close to amazing
plus
I'm working on me  

I know
I'm mental & emotionally banged up
which is why I have to
STOP  

YES give up on US  

and
keep praying you'll find your way

I only want and need peace

I'll pray for you but as for me

I'm praying
I
FINALLY
live 

 Praying
I gain
wisdom and understanding

Because

I've tried

I really did

but

I've known

even as

I've
come to realize

the truth

too late

That
it is possible
for
me to love

but

not always help

*A Broken Man