Someone once told me a secret. It was supposed to help to set me free-- but this secret has yet to reveal what I've been hoping I would see-- All I've gained so far is the uncanny sense of awareness that no matter what I say or do this secret that someone once gave me will never lead me back to you. And thus, the realization hits me hard-- Secrets aren't always real or true...
Probably just as well...my baggage is too heavy to transport back and forth. I know somehow I have to let you go. Sorry I let the monster ruin me/us/what we had. :(