when you ask me: how do you feel? what i say is: I'm good, how are you? when i really mean: I'm scared. of loosing the fight, i feel hopeless, i almost lost last night.
when you ask: do you want to eat? what i say is: no I'm not hungry. i had a big lunch when what i really mean is: yes. i haven't eaten in days. please tell me to eat because i will if you tell me to.
when you say: you look sad, are you aright? what i say is: yeah I'm fine. i just finished a sad book. when what i mean is: no. I'm not. please help me because i feel lost. and alone. I'm scared.
when you ask me: why don't you smile more? i say: i don't know but i really mean: i feel to alone to smile. and i don't have the energy to.
when you ask me: what wrong? all i say is: nothing but inside I'm screaming: i feel like i can't breathe. the sun is to bright it hurts my eyes. can you help me?
so listen to my words and if i ever say: I'm alright know that I'm most definitely not alright. its okay its not your fault you didn't hear i hid my thoughts but i live in fear.