Afraid to mess up

I think he's giving up

Hold up

             Hold on

I've been waiting on this feeling for so long

He said "why are you acting so tough?"

"CAUSE TRUTH IS, I'M 50 SHADES OF TORN UP!"

My tears are now my thoughts

My thoughts are now my fears

I know you'll never love me even if I tried for years

I want to believe that you want me just as bad as I want you

The unbeautiful truth  

That's why I silenced my love for you

It was too loud

The sound drowns out the side affects of you

As I cope with the symptoms

Chasing after your momentum

Kissing your flesh

Trying to get under your skin

I love you but I don't know where to begin

I'm shattered