I sit in the pews And I read your gospel Of pretty things that you say Things that make me okay Things that lift me up This word of God of sorts That divides my soul in half Tearing the black, tar-like mess That is myself from it and Condemning the demons within To Hell where they came from Leaving behind a clean, pure White slate that's just waiting To be filled with your love The love you blessed me with The love I don't deserve but So willingly take because of The way you say my name And make me feel whole again A feeling that seemed so gone So long gone that I lost my will And it became a downhill battle Slowly but sure surely Burning my demons with the Light of your love that I am able To accept and hold strong to Without your blessings and Unconditional love that seems To be unheard of I couldn't have Overcome what I have overcome And it's it your Old Testament That rewrites my New Testament Saving it from the flames of hell That devour the voices in my head The ones that's scream "You're not good enough" "You don't deserve him" "You'll **** the ones you love Along with yourself Create distance before it is too Late for all of you" "Maybe hurting yourself will give You the control that you can't find" You lifted my crucified heart From its grave that it laid dead In for much longer than 3 days And you removed the nails And saved it from the devil Known as self hatred You held my hands in prayer And through your hands Flowed love and freedom From myself that I needed You made self love an option And by looking at you I just know that *Your smile is my church