when i found out
that you were seeing somebody
it felt like the crushing weight
of the world
doubled
but what right did i have
to mourn a relationship
that was going nowhere?
we both knew we didn't
stand a chance.
i guess maybe i just liked
the idea of you
being perpetually
in love with me
but not actually being with me
and i know that's selfish
but you were the only one
who told me that you loved me
because i was a fighter

i guess this time
you'll say that to her